So...this will be the 2nd time I sit and write this...mostly because I just lost the first version...not sure exactly what happened, but it is definitely gone. So I'll try again. This will be the shortened version, as it is 1030pm and I'm out of energy.

Val, right on. I like the waiting on God thing...a friend gave me that revelation a few years ago, and it registered with me on an intellectual level, so I'm sure there's a reason it's coming back up.

The past couple times I've been searching in the word, I've been reading Jeremiah 32 and 33. In Chapter 32, God's addressing disobedience. It's sometimes easy for me to get caught up in rationalizing my life by comparing it to those who appear (in human terms) to be more disobedient. But I've been noticing that God is pointing out several places where I've been not obedient enough...which really basically translates to not being obedient. In Chapter 33, God says if we call on Him, He will answer, will show us great and mighty things, will reveal the abundance of peace and truth, and will cleanse them and pardon their iniquity. Verses 10-11 give me encouragement:

"Again there shall be heard in this place...the voice of joy, and the voice of gladness, the voice of the bridegroom, and the voice of the bride, the voice of them that shall say, Praise the Lord of hosts: for the Lord is good; and His mercy endures forever..."

So there is a way into that deeper relationship with Him. It will no doubt require a painful proces of burning off of the areas of my disobedience and a total revamping of my mindset. But it's worth it when I have a glimpse of the end result. It brings each of my decisions into a new perspective.
I'm in wonder of God. He says call unto Me.
So God, I call unto You.